Proust Mentions

Every mention of Proust and In Search of Lost Time from the Personal Canon newsletter.

55 mentions across 11 posts

everything i read in january 2026

everything i read in january 2026

· Philosophy, from ancient China to twentieth-century France

Once Zhuang Zhou [the supposed writer of Zhuangzi] dreamt he was a butterfly, fluttering about joyfully just as a butterfly would. He followed his whims exactly as he liked and knew nothing about Zhuang Zhou. Suddenly he awoke and there he was, the startled Zhuang Zhou in the flesh. He did not know if Zhou had been dreaming he was a butterfly, or if a butterfly was now dreaming it was Zhou. Now surely Zhou and a butterfly count as two distinct identities, as two quite different beings! And just this is what is meant when we speak of transformation of any one being into another—of the transformation of all things.

The butterfly is to Zhuangzi what the madeline is to Proust’s In Search of Lost Time (or linen is to Marx’s Capital); it’s the reference everyone is eager to make, to signal that they are in the know…but it actually appears quite early on!

If you want to be that guy or girl at the party, obnoxiously perseverating on your superior knowledge of Zhuangzi, my recommendation is to instead reference the worthless tree, a character that appears in chapter 4 and again in chapter 20.

everything i read in january 2026

· Philosophy, from ancient China to twentieth-century France

Bergson, who won the Nobel Prize in literature in 1927, wrote beautifully about the role that intuition could play in a scientifically-oriented society. And he was well-known—like his second cousin by marriage, Marcel Proust—for his writings on time, memory, and consciousness.

In 1904, Bergson wrote to Proust: “I believe, as you do, that every form of art sets out to convey certain states of mind that would be inexpressible in any other language: that is the raison d’être of that art.”

everything i read in january 2026

· Philosophy, from ancient China to twentieth-century France

Bergson, who won the Nobel Prize in literature in 1927, wrote beautifully about the role that intuition could play in a scientifically-oriented society. And he was well-known—like his second cousin by marriage, Marcel Proust—for his writings on time, memory, and consciousness.

In 1904, Bergson wrote to Proust: “I believe, as you do, that every form of art sets out to convey certain states of mind that would be inexpressible in any other language: that is the raison d’être of that art.”

Today, Proust is a household name, while many people are unfamiliar with Bergson. But for much of their lives, the situation was quite different:

everything i read in january 2026

· Philosophy, from ancient China to twentieth-century France

In 1904, Bergson wrote to Proust: “I believe, as you do, that every form of art sets out to convey certain states of mind that would be inexpressible in any other language: that is the raison d’être of that art.”

Today, Proust is a household name, while many people are unfamiliar with Bergson. But for much of their lives, the situation was quite different:

While Bergson had reached almost unfathomable levels of notoriety, Proust was still making his way towards literary icon status. In the final months of 1913…[Proust] had just suffered the sting of several rejections and had to resort to self-publishing the first volume of one of the twentieth century’s most imposing literary monuments, In Search of Lost Time.

everything i read in january 2026

· Philosophy, from ancient China to twentieth-century France

Today, Proust is a household name, while many people are unfamiliar with Bergson. But for much of their lives, the situation was quite different:

While Bergson had reached almost unfathomable levels of notoriety, Proust was still making his way towards literary icon status. In the final months of 1913…[Proust] had just suffered the sting of several rejections and had to resort to self-publishing the first volume of one of the twentieth century’s most imposing literary monuments, In Search of Lost Time.

How to understand your values

A good translation does its job only when a thousand aesthetic and compositional decisions cohere…in a way that brings into focus the life, style, and rhythm of the source text, made to lurk and lilt in the marrow and margins of these efficient and precise structures without corrupting or collapsing them, instead quickening them into an emanation of the interconnected universe of thought, feeling, and word that lives and breathes in the original work.

A long sentence, but whom among us (assuming the ‘us’ is composed of mostly Proust fan) does not love a long sentence…and there are so many exciting alliterative pairs here! Lurk/lilt; marrow/margins; corrupting/collapsing

we've created a society where artists can't make any money

we've created a society where artists can't make any money

· Cultural criticism and Silicon Valley intellectualism

This range of topics might surprise you, especially if your understanding of effective altruism is shaped by figures like Sam Bankman-Fried (a minor celebrity and prominent donor within the movement, before he was convicted of money laundering). Effective altruism, which coalesced from the late 2000s onwards, uses utilitarian philosophy to advocate for a certain style of philanthropy and socially-beneficial work. The movement stresses measurable impact over vague feelings of benevolence. But bad actors like like Bankman-Fried have made effective altruism seem morally bankrupt as a movement.1

It doesn’t help that EA is associated with awkward AI engineers and egocentric Silicon Valley nerds. To people outside the tech industry, effective altruism appears passé and essentially cringe. The rationalist blogosphere it grew out of looks even more embarrassing. It’s hard to take rationalists seriously—when one of their near-canonical founding texts is a digressive, 660,000-word Harry Potter fanfiction (about half the length of Proust) where Bayesian reasoning and magical powers are on equal footing.

Here’s where I confess, though, a certain affinity for effective altruism. Though I’m apprehensive about many aspects of the community—a myopic disinterest in electoral politics; an obsession with long-term existential risk over nearer-term AI harm—EA has shaped many of my moral instincts. It’s why I stopped eating meat; it’s why I had a recurring donation to Against Malaria for many years; it’s why I work in climate tech today.

  • Inherit wealth. The preferred path for many modernists, like Marcel Proust (who inherited around €4.5 million when his parents passed away) and Gertrude Stein (she and her brother shared a trust fund worth 8,000 francs in 1904).4 The artist Florine Stettheimer also came from a wealthy family, and painted many of her works while living in the luxurious Alwyn Court apartments, one block south of Central Park.5

  • Marry into wealth. The heroine of Amina Cain’s novel Indelicacy is a cleaner at a museum, until her marriage to a wealthy man—then, finally, she begins to write. But such unions are less common in real life than they are in fiction, as the economist Tyler Cowen observed in the New York Times. And I suspect that many people—especially women raised by highly-educated mothers—are ill-suited to this path. (I have vivid memories of my mother telling me, “Remember, an education is the one thing that no one can ever take away from you.’ The implication was that a partner’s financial support could be.)

  • best books, essays, and poems of 2025

    The novel’s structure feels a bit like traditional oral storytelling: it’s highly digressive and leaps from one character’s life story to the next. One of the more nostalgic–sentimental passages is excerpted in Caravan, which describes the novel as follows:

    Vladimir Nabokov called Proust’s enormous novel sequence In Search Of Lost Time “a treasure hunt where the treasure is time and the hiding-place the past.” Something of the same quest is enacted in this excerpt from the great Pakistani writer Mushtaq Ahmed Yousufi’s novel Mirages of the Mind.

  • Victoria Chang’s ‘The Swan, No. 20 (Hilma af Klint) in the NYRB (2025). When I first discovered Chang’s Obit poems—which take the form of newspaper-like obituaries of things like ‘My Mother’s Teeth,’ ‘Memory,’ and ‘Friendships’—I remember thinking: Oh, so this is what contemporary poetry can do! Her poems have this beautiful, introspective hesitancy; you feel the narrator (is it correct to say poems have narrators?) and their thoughts as a live, trembling presence. Here’s how this new poem of hers begins:

    The canvas is flipped from right to left. But the shell is smaller. All morning I thought the shell was the same shell. That it was a seashell. But maybe it’s a snail shell. I knew my placement of the shell on the beach couldn’t have lasted. Now my mind must move. In our lives how many things are like the snail, never thought of?

  • ’s Waiting for Your Call (2021), which has an extraordinary opening line—I love how easily she evokes the atmosphere that the poem takes place in, using 2 words that aren’t typically used to convey visual information (‘retreat,’ ‘generous’):

    The light retreats and is generous again.
    No you to speak of, anywhere—neither in vicinity nor distance,

    so I look at the blue water, the snowy egret, the lace of its feathers
    shaking in the wind, the lake—no, I am lying.

    There are no egrets here, no water. Most of the time,
    my mind gnaws on such ridiculous fictions…

    For the Proust fans, Aber has two poems that touch on him: ‘Zelda Fitzgerald’ (the first Aber poem I read!) and ‘Afghan Funeral in Paris.’

  • writing is an inherently dignified human activity

  • Post as often as you can. It’s the “secret of blogging,” the journalist observed, and a central part of the success of figures like : “The single most important thing you can do is post regularly and never stop.” In software development, this is similar to “release early, release often.” You can think of this approach, suggested, as the investment strategy of dollar cost averaging, applied to content creation:

    If a post happens to say the right thing at the right time, it will go viral. If not, it won’t. All I need to do is to keep releasing…It’s mostly about averaging across risk/opportunity exposure events, in an environment that you cannot model well.

  • Post rarely, but do exceptional work. On YouTube, the foremost practitioner of this strategy is Natalie Wynn. Most channels upload videos weekly; Wynn posts 1–2 video essays a year on ContraPoints. , who writes one of my favorite newsletters, has observed that “When I have a slower publishing cadence my blog grows faster”:

    When I started writing online, the advice I got was to publish frequently and not overthink any single piece…I’ve now written 37 blog posts and I no longer think this is true. Each time I’ve given in to my impulse to “optimize” a piece it has performed massively better (in terms of how much it’s been read, how many subscribers it’s generated, and, most importantly, the number of interesting people brought into my world).

    It’s worth nothing that my 3rd most popular post, no one told me about proust, took 18 hours to write.

  • Need a little more encouragement to take on the daunting (but profoundly rewarding) project of reading Proust? Try reading ’s Proust post, or Jonah Weiner—one-half of the cult-favorite fashion newsletter, —on Proust:

    everything i read in october & november 2025

    everything i read in october & november 2025

    · Literary and art criticism

    Nelson’s writing is referentially dense, but she retains an intimacy and warmth that I really admire—it’s a tactic I’d like to steal (as so many have stolen from Nelson’s sublime style). She’s disarmingly conversational in her essay about the theorist and poet Fred Moten (first published in 4Columns), and openly admiring in her conversation with the feminist critic Jacqueline Rose.

    And of course I loved her essay on the late, great Eve Kokofsky Sedgwick’s essay collection, The Weather in Proust, which was first published in LARB. (If Proust is mentioned in the first 20 pages of a book, I’m almost guaranteed to finish it! Other books in this category: Jacqueline Harpman’s I Who Have Never Known Men, Daša Drndić’s EEG—where a character is likened, disparagingly, to Madame Verdurin—and Sally Mann’s Art Work The nice thing about reading Proust is that it serves as a warm introduction to other books—like going to a party alone, but being on intimate terms with the most famous person there, and therefore emboldened to speak to any stranger present.)

    But I digress. I also read the literary critic James Wood’s How Fiction Works (where Proust also makes an appearance, but only on page 47). Wood is, perhaps, one of the most famous literary critics of our time—first at The Guardian, then The New Republic (where he famously inveighed against the “hysterical realism” of contemporary novels), and then the New Yorker.

    everything i read in october & november 2025

    · Literary and art criticism

    And of course I loved her essay on the late, great Eve Kokofsky Sedgwick’s essay collection, The Weather in Proust, which was first published in LARB. (If Proust is mentioned in the first 20 pages of a book, I’m almost guaranteed to finish it! Other books in this category: Jacqueline Harpman’s I Who Have Never Known Men, Daša Drndić’s EEG—where a character is likened, disparagingly, to Madame Verdurin—and Sally Mann’s Art Work The nice thing about reading Proust is that it serves as a warm introduction to other books—like going to a party alone, but being on intimate terms with the most famous person there, and therefore emboldened to speak to any stranger present.)

    But I digress. I also read the literary critic James Wood’s How Fiction Works (where Proust also makes an appearance, but only on page 47). Wood is, perhaps, one of the most famous literary critics of our time—first at The Guardian, then The New Republic (where he famously inveighed against the “hysterical realism” of contemporary novels), and then the New Yorker.

    It’s very clear, when you read How Fiction Works, how much Wood loves literature—with a kind of reverential attentiveness that makes you want to love it as much as Wood does. The book is primarily concerned with characterizing how realist fiction works—and how a realistic story, characters, and setting are constructed. And he beautifully explains some technical terms, like what “free indirect style” is:

    everything i read in october & november 2025

    · A historical and theoretical turn

    Aesthetics: An idea that sets humankind apart from other animal species. In the end of the day, burying the dead, laughter, and suicide are just the corollaries of a deep-seated hunch, the hunch that life is an aesthetic, ritualised, shaped form.

    Art:

    1. General term describing a set of objects presented as part of a narrative known as art history. This narrative draws up the critical genealogy and discusses the issues raised by these objects, by way of three sub-sets: painting, sculpture, architecture.

    2. Nowadays, the word “art” seems to be no more than a semantic leftover of this narrative, whose more accurate definition would read as follows: Art is an activity consisting in producing relationships with the world with the help of signs, forms, actions and objects.

    My great success in finally confronting Bourriaud’s Relational Aesthetics helped me approach another unread book in my shelf: Michael Chanan’s From Printing to Streaming: Cultural Production Under Capitalism. Chanan’s book occupies a category that I tend to struggle with: the Marxist theory–laden text, authored by by an Anglophone artist–academic, about art under capitalism. (If a Proust mention in the first 20 pages tends to motivate me onwards…then a Karl Marx and David Harvey and Theodor Adorno and Ludwig Wittgenstein mention in the first 20 pages tends to repel me. And if Mikhail Bakhtin is cited as well? I might never open the book again.)

    But Chanan’s From Printing to Streaming is a book of Marxist cultural analysis for people who find such books particularly stifling. It helps that he takes an unobtrusively personal approach, by describing how his own professional trajectory maps onto the historical shifts he discusses. “When I first started teaching film,” he humorously observes, “I felt like an unemployed filmmaker employed to teach other people how to become unemployed filmmakers.” But when the UK launched the publicly owned Channel 4 in the 1980s, Chanan and other independent, avant-garde filmmakers were given an opportunity to produce ambitious work—and get paid for it. After a decade of documentary filmmaking, Chanan returned to teaching.

    conversations with friends (on tech, culture, criticism, and bait)

    conversations with friends (on tech, culture, criticism, and bait)

    · Writing advice, why we love Substack, and why we still love being edited

    I also offer some Substack tips—and specifically how I get people with fractured attention spans to read my 5,000-word newsletters:

    I have this Proust newsletter that went viral earlier this year. It’s something like 5,000 words…a lot of people read to the end. I have comments and emails that reference things deep into the post. I feel very strongly that people can read something long-form on their phones, but it’s very easy to get bored. And so a lot of the formatting I do is to [make the post] feel as visually varied as possible. Lists are a nice visual break; block quotes are a nice visual break; having generous images throughout; having a few short paragraphs and a few long ones. Sometimes I see newsletters where I’m like, the content in this is so good, but there are no images. There are no subheadings. There are no little lists…Visual variation is how you get people to read long-form on a screen.

    everything i read in june 2025

    everything i read in june 2025

    · Poetry

    Poetry

    In my recent newsletter about Proust, I briefly mentioned a poem by the children’s book author and theatrical poet Ruth Krauss.

    annie ernaux fixed my disintegrating attention span

  • A Girl’s Story (2016) is about a formative experience in Ernaux’s adolescence, in the summer of 1958. She was one of the youngest and newest counselors at a summer camp, and after a sexual encounter with a popular, older counselor, she ends up rejected and mocked by the rest of the counselors. This is a genuinely difficult read—it describes the desperation to be desired, and how easy it is for young girls to be sexually manipulated and then shamed, in a very visceral way. But I think it’s poorly constructed (compared to her other memoir-y books, at least) and loses steam halfway through. As my friend Nile noted, it feels like something she had to write—to grasp at some catharsis or self-acceptance—but it doesn’t feel very whole and integrated as a story.

  • The Possession (2022) is about Ernaux’s all-consuming jealousy when a former lover (who she left, after 6 years together) begins a relationship with someone new: a 47 year old professor, divorced, with a young son. When the former lover tells Ernaux this, she—burdened with these biographical details—becomes obsessed with learning more about this woman. What does she look like? Where does she teach? What is her life like? “The strangest thing about jealousy,” Ernaux writes, “is that it can populate an entire city—the whole world—with a person you may never have met.” If you are given to stalking your exes (or your ex’s exes, or your partner’s exes) on social media, this could be a very cathartic read! Or if you liked vol. 5 and 6 of In Search of Lost Time, which describe the protagonist’s obsessive, neurotic jealousy that his loved one might be seeing others. But I—despite being an exceptional, world-class ruminator—don’t really look people up on social media like that, so I couldn’t get into The Possession! Especially since there is much less about class, gender, and French history compared to her other books.

  • no one told me about proust

    In 2022, I decided to spend the year reading Marcel Proust’s In Search of Lost Time. At the time, I knew nothing about Proust:

    I'd left college without taking a single literature class. Instead, I learned how to program and use Photoshop. So no one told me—I’d somehow missed this!—that In Search of Lost Time was a masterpiece of modernist literature. (I didn’t know what modernist literature was, either.) No one told me that it was famously difficult and exhausting to read. All I knew was that Lydia Davis—the queen of the very short story, the grand dame of American flash fiction—had once said:

    You can write three thousand pages (as Proust did in In Search of Lost Time) and still be economical.

    I read Proust because I wanted to understand what Lydia Davis saw in him. And from the very first page—with that deceptively, winsomely ordinary beginning: For a long time, I went to sleep early—I was charmed:

    For a long time, I went to bed early. Sometimes, my candle scarcely out, my eyes would close so quickly that I did not have time to say to myself: “I’m falling asleep.” And, half an hour later, the thought that it was time to try to sleep would wake me; I wanted to put down the book I thought I still had in my hands and blow out my light; I had not ceased while sleeping to form reflections on what I had just read, but these reflections had taken a rather peculiar turn; it seemed to me that I myself was what the book was talking about: a church, a quartet, the rivalry between François I and Charles V. This belief lived on for a few seconds after my waking; it did not shock my reason but lay heavy like scales on my eyes and kept them from realizing that the candlestick was no longer lit.1

    For a long time, I went to bed early. Sometimes, my candle scarcely out, my eyes would close so quickly that I did not have time to say to myself: “I’m falling asleep.” And, half an hour later, the thought that it was time to try to sleep would wake me; I wanted to put down the book I thought I still had in my hands and blow out my light; I had not ceased while sleeping to form reflections on what I had just read, but these reflections had taken a rather peculiar turn; it seemed to me that I myself was what the book was talking about: a church, a quartet, the rivalry between François I and Charles V. This belief lived on for a few seconds after my waking; it did not shock my reason but lay heavy like scales on my eyes and kept them from realizing that the candlestick was no longer lit.1

    For the next 291 days, the novel accompanied me everywhere. I brought vol. 1, The Way By Swann's, on a train from San Francisco to Los Angeles; and when I needed a reprieve from Charles Swann’s obsession with Odette de Crécy (one of the most successful sugar babies in the literary canon), I would rest my eyes by looking out into the arid Californian landscape, which was now layered over with scenes from Madame Verdurin’s salon, where Swann and his lover would meet. I brought vol. 4, Sodom and Gomorrah, on a vacation to Milan—and, lying awake after my friends had gone to sleep, I would indulge in Proust's descriptions of the night:

    The moon was in the sky now like a quarter of orange, delicately peeled but with a small bite out of it. Later it would be made of the most resistant gold. Huddled all alone behind it, a poor little star was about to serve as the solitary moon’s one companion

    I have never again met nor identified the beautiful girl with the cigarette. We shall see, moreover, why for a long time I had to leave off searching for her. But I have not forgotten her. It often happens that when I am thinking of her I am seized by a wild longing. But these recurrences of desire force us to reflect that, if we wanted to meet these girls again with the same pleasure, we should have also to go back to the year in question…We can sometimes find a person again, but not abolish time.

    Everything about In Search of Lost Time was extraordinary—beautiful and funny and remarkable and strange. It was like nothing I had ever read before. I was enthralled. I was also upset. Why had no one told me that Proust would be like this?

    It was the same feeling that the essayist Elisa Gabbert, in one of her Paris Review columns on reading canonical works, described:

    I pulled Swann’s Way off the shelf, read the first paragraph, and was astonished. Its obsessive attention to memory, time, and the minutiae of experience as it occurs through thinking—it was not just good. It was, as they say, extremely my shit. Everyone says you should read Proust, but no one had ever told me that I, specifically, should read Proust.

    Yes, the novel was about memory and madeleines and time—but it was also about gossip, gay sex, frivolously spending money, social climbing, getting a song (more specifically, a sonata) stuck in your head, grieving a grandparent, political scandals, and perpetual dissatisfaction in love. When I finished the novel, something had changed within me—I experienced language, literature, life in a new way. The novel is, as the literary scholar Roger Shattuck wrote, “intimately concern[ed]…[with] human beings faced with the appalling responsibility of living our lives.”

    Yes, the novel was about memory and madeleines and time—but it was also about gossip, gay sex, frivolously spending money, social climbing, getting a song (more specifically, a sonata) stuck in your head, grieving a grandparent, political scandals, and perpetual dissatisfaction in love. When I finished the novel, something had changed within me—I experienced language, literature, life in a new way. The novel is, as the literary scholar Roger Shattuck wrote, “intimately concern[ed]…[with] human beings faced with the appalling responsibility of living our lives.”

    There are two distinct periods of my life: Before Proust and After Proust. After Proust I was no longer someone who merely read books; I was obsessed with them. I couldn't stop talking about Proust! He was the friend I wanted to introduce to everyone I loved; his was the novel where everything important—art, love, friendship, science, beauty, morality, desire—could be found.2

    This newsletter is about why you, specifically, should read Proust—but it’s also about why, and how, we ought to approach the literary greats.

    There are two distinct periods of my life: Before Proust and After Proust. After Proust I was no longer someone who merely read books; I was obsessed with them. I couldn't stop talking about Proust! He was the friend I wanted to introduce to everyone I loved; his was the novel where everything important—art, love, friendship, science, beauty, morality, desire—could be found.2

    This newsletter is about why you, specifically, should read Proust—but it’s also about why, and how, we ought to approach the literary greats.

    In this post — Elissa Gabbert on Proust ✦ Roger Shattuck, Proust’s Binoculars on poptimism ✦ W. David Marx on cultural decline on consciousness ✦ Zachary Fine on Schjeldahl ✦ Daisy Alioto on taste ✦ Charles Broskoski on how to change your trajectory

    no one told me about proust

    · The (un)importance of being well-read

    The (un)importance of being well-read

    Before Proust, however, I was not someone who read literature. I was suspicious of it and alienated from the entire project of reading the “classics,” the “canon,” the “great books.” Literature, I assumed, was for people who explicitly pursued distinction, who were proud of their elevated taste. I couldn’t relate to this; I believed it was better to be ordinary, virtuous to be humble. (I might have inherited this from my parents, who—after a childhood in communist Vietnam—preferred to live quietly, dress normally, and behave inconspicuously.3)

    But I loved to read. I just wasn’t invested in being ‘well-read,’ and so I never sought out David Foster Wallace’s Infinite Jest, Tolstoy’s War and Peace, or any of the books that established someone as a serious reader. What did I read? A lot of manga, mostly. A lot of YA fiction (especially when I was, appropriately, a young adult myself). A lot of fantasy and sci-fi that had fans, that people had fun with. Whenever people spoke of capital L Literature, it seemed like a deadly dull status game. The point of reading Infinite Jest seemed to be that DFW was an Important Writer, who had written an Important Book, and the importance seemed to be largely about how long and unyieldingly difficult it was. I was allergic to the life that this implied—a life where you read things because you were “supposed” to, not because you wanted to.

    no one told me about proust

    · The (un)importance of being well-read

    But I loved to read. I just wasn’t invested in being ‘well-read,’ and so I never sought out David Foster Wallace’s Infinite Jest, Tolstoy’s War and Peace, or any of the books that established someone as a serious reader. What did I read? A lot of manga, mostly. A lot of YA fiction (especially when I was, appropriately, a young adult myself). A lot of fantasy and sci-fi that had fans, that people had fun with. Whenever people spoke of capital L Literature, it seemed like a deadly dull status game. The point of reading Infinite Jest seemed to be that DFW was an Important Writer, who had written an Important Book, and the importance seemed to be largely about how long and unyieldingly difficult it was. I was allergic to the life that this implied—a life where you read things because you were “supposed” to, not because you wanted to.

    Before Proust, I assumed that high culture was for snobs, and pop culture was for the people—it was where you actually enjoyed books, films, music, art. And yet. I was reading so many bad books: unsatisfying, superficial, insubstantial.

    I would sometimes encounter books that were different. I could recognize the greater ambitions behind these books, the seriousness and simultaneous levity they brought to the project of placing words on a page, one after another—words that seemed to resonate much more deeply than the other books I had read. Sometimes, I discovered these books by mistake: I read Maggie Nelson’s Bluets in college, for example, while taking a color theory class—I assumed, based on the title, that it would help me with my homework. But often, it was because someone I knew gently pressed a copy of the book into my hands.

    no one told me about proust

    · The (un)importance of being well-read

    I would sometimes encounter books that were different. I could recognize the greater ambitions behind these books, the seriousness and simultaneous levity they brought to the project of placing words on a page, one after another—words that seemed to resonate much more deeply than the other books I had read. Sometimes, I discovered these books by mistake: I read Maggie Nelson’s Bluets in college, for example, while taking a color theory class—I assumed, based on the title, that it would help me with my homework. But often, it was because someone I knew gently pressed a copy of the book into my hands.

    Snobbery didn’t motivate me; passion did. I wanted to read the books that others loved. It was Lydia Davis’s unyielding love for Proust that convinced me to read him. Reading In Search of Lost Time, I realized that Proust described certain experiences—being conscious, perceiving reality, observing the world, encountering other people—with a kind of trembling, vital energy I had never experienced before. Every page was rich with sensations and ideas—and every I spent reading the novel seemed to overflow with things to savor, because, as Proust wrote in vol. 7, Finding Time Again:

    An hour is not just an hour, it is a vessel full of perfumes, sounds, plans and atmospheres.

    no one told me about proust

    · Poptimism is keeping you from the really good books!

    Poptimism is keeping you from the really good books!

    Why had I never read Proust before? Because I was a victim of what (in one of the best and most invigorating newsletters I’ve read on Substack) has described as a “vulgar poptimism,” where

    everything is just as good as everything else and no one actually likes anything challenging—they’re lying to themselves, or to you.

    no one told me about proust

    · Poptimism is keeping you from the really good books!

    everything is just as good as everything else and no one actually likes anything challenging—they’re lying to themselves, or to you.

    This was why I clung onto pop culture for so long—because I thought that the “challenging” books (and films, and music, and performances) were less enjoyable. Reading Proust showed me that this was false. The supposedly impenetrable, inscrutable, overtly intellectual works—they were better, not because they offered more cultural capital and clout, but because they made me feel alive.4

    I had essentially discovered what W. David Marx—the writer of Ametora and Status and Culture, which I read in February 2024—describes as the difference between entertainment and art. In a recent newsletter, Marx observed that, in the twentieth century:

    no one told me about proust

    · Poptimism is keeping you from the really good books!

    Most elites believed that “art” described a rarified sphere…which stood in opposition to the "mass culture" of bland, sensationalist, lowest-common-denominator works made for profit. There was no confusing the two worlds, because there was a very high bar for what qualified as “art.” The avant-garde concept of art was something like “creative alterations of established conventions within an aesthetic context that provide new stimulus, and in the best cases, force the audiences out of their basic cognitive modes to perceive stimulus in new ways”…

    Not every creative endeavor provides the same degree of originality or formalistic mastery. A child's finger-painting is not equivalent to a Rothko. A work only verges towards art in challenging or playing with the existing conventions to create new aesthetic effects. Entertainment is a different kind of creative endeavor. It doesn't need to tinker with our brains. It just needs to provide enough stimulus to momentarily keep an audience's attention, and it can usually achieve this by tapping well-tested conventional formulas.

    The unexpected economy of a Proustian sentence

    One of the aesthetic effects that is so distinctively Proustian, so formally masterful and remarkable, is the way in which his sentences leap forward and backwards in time, presenting us with the narrator’s early ignorance and the understanding he attained later on in life. One of the best examples of this appears in vol. 4, Sodom and Gomorrah, when Marcel describes a covert relationship between two men:

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    · The unexpected economy of a Proustian sentence

    The unexpected economy of a Proustian sentence

    One of the aesthetic effects that is so distinctively Proustian, so formally masterful and remarkable, is the way in which his sentences leap forward and backwards in time, presenting us with the narrator’s early ignorance and the understanding he attained later on in life. One of the best examples of this appears in vol. 4, Sodom and Gomorrah, when Marcel describes a covert relationship between two men:

    What I did not alas know at that time, and only learned more than two years later, was that one of the chauffeur’s customers was […], and that [the chauffeur]…had struck up a close friendship with [the customer]…(while making out he did not know him in front of company)…Had I known this at the time…perhaps many of the sorrows of my life in Paris, the following year, many of my misfortunes relative to Albertine, might have been avoided; but I had not the least suspicion of it.

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    · The unexpected economy of a Proustian sentence

    What I did not alas know at that time, and only learned more than two years later, was that one of the chauffeur’s customers was […], and that [the chauffeur]…had struck up a close friendship with [the customer]…(while making out he did not know him in front of company)…Had I known this at the time…perhaps many of the sorrows of my life in Paris, the following year, many of my misfortunes relative to Albertine, might have been avoided; but I had not the least suspicion of it.

    Here, Proust has superimposed 3 different moments in time into a single sentence:

  • Point A, the present moment, where Proust is not aware of the relationship between the chauffeur and his customer, and has not experienced any “misfortunes relative to Albertine”;

  • Point B, the “following year,” when those misfortunes occur;

  • Point B, the “following year,” when those misfortunes occur;

  • Point C, “more than two years later,” when Proust becomes aware of the chauffeur’s relationship with his customer, which could have made a material difference to his romantic life.

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    · The unexpected economy of a Proustian sentence

    The novel is full of these enticing, elliptical sentences—where Proust reveals something, and expresses that, if only he had known this earlier, certain events would have proceeded differently, or with greater understanding. They create a tremendous feeling of tension—they urge you onwards, so you can know exactly what these future misfortunes are. Sentences like these are, I’d like to think, what Lydia Davis meant when she praised Proust’s economy with language.

    And sentences like these are, I feel, where Proust is doing something more, something greater, than many conventional novels. I began to understand why writers that came after Proust revered him so much, and were able to take, from the pages of In Search of Lost Time, techniques that made their own work better.

    no one told me about proust

    · The unexpected economy of a Proustian sentence

    The novel is full of these enticing, elliptical sentences—where Proust reveals something, and expresses that, if only he had known this earlier, certain events would have proceeded differently, or with greater understanding. They create a tremendous feeling of tension—they urge you onwards, so you can know exactly what these future misfortunes are. Sentences like these are, I’d like to think, what Lydia Davis meant when she praised Proust’s economy with language.

    And sentences like these are, I feel, where Proust is doing something more, something greater, than many conventional novels. I began to understand why writers that came after Proust revered him so much, and were able to take, from the pages of In Search of Lost Time, techniques that made their own work better.

    It’s not pretentious to care about art!

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    · It’s not pretentious to care about art!

    It’s not pretentious to care about art!

    And even if you’re not a writer, encountering Proust can still be a formative experience. By the end of vol. 1, I had attained an entirely new understanding of my childhood—my youthful fears, dreams, fascinations. By the end of vol. 2, I began to think about my early crushes differently—and all the aspirations for an adult life that I invested in them. As the novelist once said to Bookforum, “A novel is a literary work of art meant to expand consciousness.” (In that sense, Proust may be more transformative than a psychedelic trip—though the most effective approach, perhaps, might be to combine the two.5)

    There are, certainly, other novels about childhood and crushes and all the other concerns of Proust’s novel. But there aren’t that many that have offered the same revelatory impact—the same feeling of transformation—that In Search of Lost Time offered me. And this, I think, is at the heart of W. David Marx’s distinction between entertainment and art. Anyone who tries to categorize cultural artifacts in this way is usually accused of being elitist and pretentious—but it is useful, and arguably necessary, to draw these distinctions.

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    · It’s not pretentious to care about art!

    And even if you’re not a writer, encountering Proust can still be a formative experience. By the end of vol. 1, I had attained an entirely new understanding of my childhood—my youthful fears, dreams, fascinations. By the end of vol. 2, I began to think about my early crushes differently—and all the aspirations for an adult life that I invested in them. As the novelist once said to Bookforum, “A novel is a literary work of art meant to expand consciousness.” (In that sense, Proust may be more transformative than a psychedelic trip—though the most effective approach, perhaps, might be to combine the two.5)

    There are, certainly, other novels about childhood and crushes and all the other concerns of Proust’s novel. But there aren’t that many that have offered the same revelatory impact—the same feeling of transformation—that In Search of Lost Time offered me. And this, I think, is at the heart of W. David Marx’s distinction between entertainment and art. Anyone who tries to categorize cultural artifacts in this way is usually accused of being elitist and pretentious—but it is useful, and arguably necessary, to draw these distinctions.

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    · Taste is more like love than education

    Broskoski describes these as “nodal points.” A nodal point, he writes, can be “any ‘thing’ in the world that has changed your trajectory…[including] a person…a friend, or a place, or just an idea.”

    Proust’s In Search of Lost Time is one of my nodal points (and it was probably a nodal point for Virginia Woolf, too.) But my friend Ari—a poet, linguist and perfumer—is also a nodal point. Because I admired them so deeply, I became interested in the things they were interested in, and sought out information about scents and perfumes and an olfactory landscape that had, previously, been obscured to me. I educated myself in the world they inhabited. But the education came after; the love came first.

    My friend Nat (the first person I sent this newsletter to!) is another nodal point. Whenever we spoke—in exuberant, looping conversations about everything from software, Solenoid, fashion and film—I felt more activated, more alive, by her passion for things. It was the way she spoke about films, in particular—her devotion to Yasujirō Ozu and Abbas Kiarostami and others—that made me want to watch them too. Before we became friends, I don’t think I watched more than 5 films a year—it just didn’t seem like my thing. My friendship with Nat—and my admiration for her film criticism—turned it into my thing.

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    · Here for the right reasons

    Much has been said about how social media shapes our tastes for the worse, but Broskoski is interested in other environmental factors. “Algorithms pervert one’s attention,” Broskoski notes, but “an atmosphere that promotes being performative does as well.”

    One can read Proust for performative reasons, of course. But I don’t know if that sustains someone through 3,000 pages of prose. It may get you through the first 50 pages, but to keep on going, some part of you has to be attending to the novel itself, not what the novel can do for you—not the feeling of being able to say, “I’m reading Proust,” but the feeling of actually reading Proust.

    This is how love works—you may begin for pure reasons, or egocentric and performative reasons, but in the end it has to be earnest. Our lives are short. We should read what we love and spend time with those we love. And if the world is full of writers who can model a kind of “reverse poptimism,” an unfeigned enthusiasm for the greatest works—then, I think, we’ll have the best possible chance of being transformed by art.

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    · What Werner Herzog and Nicholas Nassim Taleb have in common ✦

    Trashy gossip magazines and classics or sophisticated works; never middlebrow stuff.

    Read Proust, or read The Cut’s sublimely voyeuristic sex diaries; nothing in between. (You probably shouldn’t be reading my newsletter, if you take Taleb’s advice seriously.)

    The filmmaker Werner Herzog has a similar approach, as he explained in an interview with The Guardian:

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    · An image from my life enters your screen

    Thank you for reading and for letting me write to you about In Search of Lost Time—a novel that has (genuinely) changed my life. I’d love to hear about your own relatiotnship to Proust (antagonistic? affectionate?) and about the books that have inspired a similar passion in you!

    And a special thank you to my fellow Proust fans from when I lived in San Francisco, especially , who runs the excellent and intellectually rich podcast . It is not entirely correct to call it an “AI podcast”—one of the best episodes is Daniel’s interview with Thomas Mullaney, a professor of Chinese history, on Mullaney’s book The Chinese Computer: A Global History of the Information Age.

    All quotes are from the Penguin translation of In Search of Lost Time, edited by Christopher Prendergast, and with a different translator for each volume. (The first volume is translated by Lydia Davis.)

    I actually compared Davis’s translation with the Moncrieff/Kilmartin/Enright translation—the one that comes in a beautiful box set—here, and I personally think Davis’s is more beautiful! But please weigh in if you have strong opinions on the best English translation of Proust!

    One of the loveliest discoveries I had, when reading In Search of Lost Time, was seeing how engaged Proust was with the science of his time, and the literary potential he saw in it! Several of his elaborately developed metaphors rely on concepts from biology or optics.

    I mean, it’s obviously useful—if you are trying to befriend literary people—to have a working knowledge of Proust. But I’ve been in many, many more conversations where a working knowledge of, say, Game of Thrones or the last Arsenal game or Kate Middleton’s social media could have helped me ingratiate myself with people.

    And also, if I were to be very crass and direct about this: It is usually at my workplace, surrounded by other tech workers, that I have to pretend to be interested in TV shows. At a poetry reading, where the average annual income is—most likely—much, much lower…that’s when I talk to people about Proust! In the US, high culture is not really associated with high incomes—that’s something that seems to be omitted from a lot of conversations about cultural elitism and who the actual economic elites are.

    Reply to this email and I’ll tell you my favorite Proust passage to read before (a) a psychedelic trip in nature, and (b) going to a gay/queer rave.

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    · Films

    The second film was Chantal Akerman’s La Captive (2000), a film adaptation of the fifth volume of Proust’s In Search of Lost Time. This was a difficult film for me! I love Proust (and probably mention him in every newsletter I send), and I’m very drawn to Akerman’s work…but this was my least favorite volume of Proust’s novel! Unfortunately, this meant that La Captive, which depicts the protagonist and his love interest (Albertine in the novel, Ariane in the film) in a claustrophobically paranoid relationship, was just—not fun. Akerman perfectly captures how it felt to read The Prisoner, with its agonizing, repetitive depiction of a love affair getting worse and worse.

    But here’s what I did love: the opening scenes and the very charming dialogue; the color palette of the film (just consistently extraordinary); the realization that I have a very specific image of some of the characters of In Search of Lost Time and the mannerisms I expect from them. (The actress playing Ariane/Albertine was much more timid than I imagined she would be!)

    everything i read in february 2025

    · Films

    The second film was Chantal Akerman’s La Captive (2000), a film adaptation of the fifth volume of Proust’s In Search of Lost Time. This was a difficult film for me! I love Proust (and probably mention him in every newsletter I send), and I’m very drawn to Akerman’s work…but this was my least favorite volume of Proust’s novel! Unfortunately, this meant that La Captive, which depicts the protagonist and his love interest (Albertine in the novel, Ariane in the film) in a claustrophobically paranoid relationship, was just—not fun. Akerman perfectly captures how it felt to read The Prisoner, with its agonizing, repetitive depiction of a love affair getting worse and worse.

    But here’s what I did love: the opening scenes and the very charming dialogue; the color palette of the film (just consistently extraordinary); the realization that I have a very specific image of some of the characters of In Search of Lost Time and the mannerisms I expect from them. (The actress playing Ariane/Albertine was much more timid than I imagined she would be!)

    Articles

    On painting. A recent newsletter from the critic and essayist convinced me to change my phone background to a Florine Stettheimer painting. (The monied buy her paintings from Christie’s; the rest of us admire them in museums or on our screens). Here’s a lovely essay from Adam Gopnick about the “luxury and ecstasy” of Stettheimer’s seemingly ingenuous paintings:

    Stettheimer’s deliberate simplification of drawing, her repetitive figure style, and her relentlessly additive, crowded compositions can at first evoke “outsider art.” But there are two types of outsider art, one made from below and one from above. There is the outsider who is, at first, indifferent to the possibility that money might be made from art, and then there is the outsider who needs to make no money from her art…Stettheimer, like Proust, her beloved literary hero, enjoyed the detachment provided by wealth, the luxury—shared by Edith Wharton, Gerald Murphy, and Cole Porter—of making what she wanted.

    If you want to read more about Stettheimer, I also loved Johanna Fateman’s review of a Stettheimer biography for 4Columns.

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    how to begin

    · Open with an eccentric personal behavior (Lucy Grealy)

    There was a long period of time, almost a year, during which I never looked in a mirror. It wasn't easy, for I'd never suspected just how omnipresent are our own images. I began by merely avoiding mirrors, but by the end of the year I found myself with an acute knowledge of the reflected image, its numerous tricks and wiles, how it can spring up at any moment: a glass tabletop, a well-polished door handle, a darkened window, a pair of sunglasses, a restaurant's otherwise magnificent brass-plated coffee machine sitting innocently by the cash register.

    At the time, I had just moved, alone, to Scotland and was surviving on the dole, as Britain's social security benefits are called. I didn't know anyone and had no idea how I was going to live, yet I went anyway because by happenstance I'd met a plastic surgeon there who said he could help me. I had been living in London, working temp jobs. While in London, I'd received more nasty comments about my face than I had in the previous three years, living in Iowa, New York, and Germany. These comments, all from men and all odiously sexual, hurt and disoriented me. I also had journeyed to Scotland because after more than a dozen operations in the States my insurance had run out, along with my hope that further operations could make any real difference. Here, however, was a surgeon who had some new techniques, and here, amazingly enough, was a government willing to foot the bill: I didn't feel I could pass up yet another chance to "fix" my face, which I confusedly thought concurrent with "fixing" my self, my soul, my life.

    One of the perils of being a Proust reader is that you start to see a bit of Proust in everything. In the cadence of the first sentence (There was a long period of time, almost a year…) I can’t help but think of the beginning of In Search of Lost Time, which begins: For a long time, I went to bed early (in Lydia Davis’s translation) or For a long time, I would go to bed early (in the Moncrieff/Kilmartin/Enright translation). But this might just be my reading of it.

    But—if I’m trying to be more objective—what the first sentence does is explain an eccentric behavior: I never looked at my face. The next 2 sentences explain how difficult this was in practice: This wasn’t easy…I began by avoiding mirrors, but by the end of the year I found myself with an acute knowledge of the reflected image. The first paragraph is only 3 sentences long; much of the length comes from the last sentence, which describes the many mirror-like surfaces where Grealy might catch her reflection: a glass tabletop, a well-polished door handle, a darkened window, a pair of sunglasses, a restaurant's otherwise magnificent brass-plated coffee machine sitting innocently by the cash register.